sometimes I hide inside this cozy bubble of joy.
holding tight the moment.
until it has cultivated to a point where I can no long contain
it bursts forth at will.
on its own.
sometimes I hide inside the kids play fort.
with only one goal in mind.
to burst forth when one of them walks past.
creating a blanket of laughter and giggles.
holding space for the joy to envelope us all.
sometimes I hide inside to heal a hurt I no longer want to feel.
the raw deep emotion that keeps lapping at my joy.
eroding my moments with dust of the past.
holding it gently to wait patiently for it to crumble
to dust of its own. returning a few times to make sure
the hurt is truly gone.
sometimes I hide inside for the briefest of moments.
long enough to say, I love you. thank you for this day.
bursting back out to climb those vast moments sprinkled with life.
embracing the joy and the pain with what is needed again and again.
most times I stand here in the moment embracing
a life so spectacular that love could only have created it.